9/11/06Remembering
Go ahead and mention my child
The one that died, You know
Don't worry about hurting me further
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry
I'm already crying inside
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent
Pretending it doesn't exist
I'd rather you'd mention my child
Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I'm doing.
I say "Pretty good" or "fine"
But healing is something on-going
I feel it will take a lifetime.
~Kisses to Heaven~
Today I sent a kiss to Heaven
I'm encouraging all of you to try
For if I have shared this with you
You have had a child die.
This kiss came from deep inside
And I know that it truly was received
Right after I had sent my kiss
A calming breeze surrounded me.
Not only that, a wind chime rang
From where I do not know
But I felt my children smile at me
And say they love me so.
Take a kiss within your hands
And look up to the sky
Release that kiss with loving care
Now please try not to cry.
Once your kiss is off to them
To Heaven's gate above
Just look for any single sign
Of your child's precious love.
I'll lend you for a little time
a child of Mine, He said.
For you to love while she lives,
and mourn when she is dead.
It may be six or seven years,
or twenty-two or three.
But will you til I call her back,
take care of her for me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you,
and her stay, it shall be brief.
You'll have her lovely memories,
as solace for your grief.
I can not promise she will stay,
since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there, I want this child to learn.
I've looked the wide world over
in my search for teachers true,
and from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I have selected you.
Now, you will give her all your love,
and not think the labor vain,
nor hate me when I come to call,
to take her back again.
I fancied that I heard them say,
Dear Lord, thy will be done.
For all the joy this child shall bring,
the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter her with tenderness,
we'll love her while we may,
and for the happiness we've known,
we'll ever grateful stay.
But, shall the angels call for her,
much sooner than we planned,
we'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand.
Katie the year we had together was the best year of my life and our time was way to short u showed me a love that i never new i could have, you are my baby girl and i pray daily that the angels watch over you till the day i can once again be your mommy i love so much katie girl you are missed
