Stories of Lost Children
Mommy's Little Angels
by Catina Standley, Waller, TX, U.S.A.
After having a miscarriage seven months before, I found out I was pregnant again; life had NO meaning. This pregnancy was going to be the best, and it really had no sickness, no complications. The thought of having a successful pregnancy was a pure JOY!!! The doctor visits were all good with no problems. The day of the ultrasound to see what we were having (3-17-04); I was getting ready for my visit when I stood up and there was a trickle down my legs. I thought nothing of the trickle and went on my way to the ultrasound. Once we got there I felt that I could not hold the 32oz of water I was about to burst. While in the ultrasound the tech asked "Did anybody tell you you were haveing twins?" I immediately replied "No, you're playing right?." She said let me look and see "yes it's TWO". We then knew one of them was a boy but could not get a look at the other. While doing the ultrasound my water broke. This would crush my whole world and I was only 20 weeks pregnant. I went straight to the hospital as directed by the tech. I was in labor. The doctor came in and talked with us and informed us that there was a chance that the first baby would come and the second would stay. At this time we did not know that the first was a girl and that they were in two different sacks. I laborded through the night and at 8:23 a.m. I gave birth to my daughter TRISTA. The doctor told me to just lay there that there was a chance that the boy would stay, cause we now knew they were in two seperate sacks. I did just that but GOD knew best my son TRISTEN was born st 8:31 a.m. I could no longer understand how something so precious could leave me so all alone. The hardest part of all came when the nurse who help deliver them came to me with tears in her eyes because she said they were health they just could not live because they were too early. I had to bury them and thank GOD I got the chance to hold and kiss them both were did get some pictures. I look at them everyday and thank God He gave them to me for only a brief moment. I miss them greatly and know they are waiting for me in heaven.
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