Stories of Lost Children
Stillbirth
by K., Tiny, ON, Canada
Valentines day February 15, 1976 I went into labour, baby was full term, bags packed we arrived at hospital with anticipation, we did not know if our child was going to be a boy or girl but secretly I had been wishing for a girl, one look at the nurses faces was enough to put my then husband any myself into panic mode, they couldn't get a heartbeat on monitor, hours later now into the following day my stillborn daughter came into the world, when I asked to see or hold her my wishes were not granted, every single day of my life I wonder what she would have been like, a nurse at the time said "you are young you will have more" 36 years later I never had another child. November 1991 my letter to "The Canadian Nurse" was published, it was in response to an article previously published "Perinatal death and grieving". Somewhere her ashes are buried in Westminister Cemetary in Toronto, but I have no memory of her, no lock or hair, no footprint only a hole in my heart. for my daughter Shannon Rose Cassidy
February 15, 1976
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